Losing Track Of Time While Trying To Gain Control Over My Chronic Pain
It’s been a bit quiet here on the blog recently. It seems I’ve lost track of time while I’ve been away dealing with a pesky problem called chronic pain.
How Friends Can Bring You Back To Reality
It was thanks to messages from some friends who also follow the blog that made me realise this. My close friends know I have a history of ‘dropping off’ the social radar and there’s always a reason why.
A: I’ve become ‘super focused’ on something, developed tunnel vision, and have lost track of time and the world around me.
B: Something is wrong, and I’ve stopped communicating.
The latter is something I used to do quite frequently when I suffered from depression, since my recovery I’ve learnt that reaching out for help can fix things sooner than if I shut people out, so I have become better at communicating when things get bad.
I still have work to do on not forgetting to come up for air when I become ‘super focused’ it seems.
As I had a history of going quiet when I really could use a friend, I got a message the other day saying….”RUOK.”
The answer was yes I am ok….quite good actually.
“How is the blog going?”
I had to pause for a second…how long had it been? I checked back on the date of my last post…I had lost track of time it seems. I had been so busy trying to find a way to manage my chronic pain.
My Experiences With Chronic Pain
If it were an isolated incident, I wouldn’t consider my chronic pain as high on the pain scale…but when it’s there every day, all the time, it had become a significant barrier in my life. I was beginning to lose energy and motivation because no matter what I did, where I went….I was in pain. It’s tiring, and it had put a big chink in my spoonie armour. I finally had enough, and I had to do something about it.
Just a bit of background for you.
Ever since the beginning of this year, one by one old MS symptoms, as well as other aches and pains, had started coming back. At first, I was coping ok and just got on with my life despite it. Then it began to impede on my ability to do things. It got to the extent that I started to think I was having a relapse. The MS Nurse explained that as these were old symptoms, it was most likely a pseudo relapse. My neurologist ordered a new MRI scan once I began reporting problems with my eye sight.
Thankfully the scans showed no new or active lesions. However it was starting to feel like my old remitting symptoms, that would typically come and go, were here to stay.
For this reason, I took time away from writing to try and get on top of my pain. I didn’t intend to be away for so long, but as my pain had multiple causes and needed various interventions getting to the source of the problem has taken some time. I’m happy to report I am now winning the fight against my chronic pain.
My Pain Management Journey
Now I’m buzzing with motivation again, and I have a lot of things I want to share with you about my pain management journey. As I said there had been various approaches I have had to use, and I will be writing about each of these soon.
Just a bit of a list of things I will be tackling in the future:
– Neurological pain and my success with exercise for pain management and chronic fatigue;
– A gym and group fitness guide for people with a chronic illness.
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